Goodbye 2010

I created this blog originally to document my journey. So many things were happening, I was running like crazy, awaiting the approval to adopt Angie and Camilo and contemplating a mini career change. Then the bottom fell out. I injured myself by running too much, and nothing went right with the adoption. There was disappointment after disappointment. Way too much dirt to get into. I did make the change in my career and, although it was a great move, it was stressful in different ways and... I had to go back to nights.

Life was simply chugging along and I was just keeping my head above water. I returned to running but it was difficult to train due to my crazy schedule. I did however beat my previous time at Roadrunner in the half. I had also come to the conclusion that we were not likely to be approved to adopt Angie and Camilo and all the hoops we kept jumping through were in vain. I just knew they were trying to wear us out.

Then things changed almost overnight. In early December a co-worker, who recently started working day shift, decided she would like to go back to nights so we swapped positions. I started day shift the Monday after Christmas. Less than a week after getting the news about work, I also received a call on December ninth ( we were celebrating Collin's Birthday which is on the eighth and it was Camilo's Birthday) that it looked like were were going to be approved to adopt Angie and Camilo. Things are once again going well.

I went for a run yesterday I didn't take my Garmin nor a watch. I don't know how far or how long I ran, I just did. At the end the clarity was amazing, there was no second guessing whether I could have done better, gone faster, farther. And I felt empowered and that for the first time in a long time, that happiness and my life, in general, was up to me. I really do have the reigns. I suppose that I never really lost complete faith but, man have I been down. I have spent a good portion of 2010 suppressed and withdrawn. I now know that I do not want 2011 to have the same fate, and it shouldn't. I have hung in there and waited out the uncomfortable and ugly that dominated my life for a good portion of a year. I am now ready to live, ready to just do whatever it takes to be happy living. No nonsense just pure love and laughter!

Happy New Year to you and me!!!