Moving Right Along

I am admittedly really bad about record keeping. My family photo albums are in a box (not in an album) somewhere. I always have best of intentions and what I think are really good ideas for documenting my children's' happenings but, I get busy. Ya I'll go with that one. Well, now I really need to fill in the blanks. We are going to Colombia in a little over a month and I'm facing a lot of time to dwell on anything and everything. Now more than ever it is important to talk about, photograph and relay my out of the ordinary, average story. So with that I will blog my heart out. It's so interesting that when you least expect it things just happen. It's apparently a lesson I haven't "gotten" yet, something about patience. I also may or may not be a bit of a control freak. Here we are though, airplane tickets are bought we're looking for an AFFORDABLE place to stay in Colombia and it's happening. We are going to adopt Angie and Camilo!!! We worked so hard for this and even though at time we lost all hope we (Angie and Camilo included) hung in there. Regardless of my inclination to control it and make it happen I really didn't. It ended up a divine lining up of circumstances and who knows what else to pave the way. What is amazing is that the last few times that I had talked on the phone with Angie and Camilo it was hard to communicate. I had lost my Spanglish and they seems to be digressing with their English. Today I talked to Angie and even though she sounded so grown up we were able to communicate. She told me how happy she was we were coming...in ENGLISH. And it all clicked back into place. Please don't misunderstand that I feel the levity of this situation. I almost have a panic attack when I think of the responsibility and the importance of my own ability to not only provide the essentials but, also the backbone for them and yet that soft place to land when things don't go so well. I have to be kind but firm and yet advocate for them. It's really weird sometimes how I think of their position. Maybe it's that "are you crazy" part that I hear from people who find out we are adopting. However, I feel like Angie and Camilo have such and opportunity to know two realities. One of life in an orphanage and the icky stuff that happened to land them there. They know how to fight and survive and thrive, they come to us with that. and they have the opportunity that most never have to know that life and then to experience a very different life. It has the potential to shape them into phenomenal people. So when I start doubting and worrying about everything involved in this adoption I think of our investment in the future of Angie and Camilo and who can argue with that? I may not ever have a new car again and I may not wear the latest labels but my net gain from my investment will be better than any object I can imagine.